I can't stand the things he has done and the person he has become. I cannot fathom ever being with him again after all he has said and done and been and been with. But I miss my family. I miss what we were supposed to have had. I do not know how to get past this. Just move on, just stop thinking about it, just pray about it, just put it behind you, just leave it in God's hands. JUST JUST JUST JUST JUST!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!
It is in God's hands, always has been, I have no power or control. That's JUST not easing the pain.