He is a different person now. We believe different things. He stands for different things. He has done many things I can't stand the thought of. Why can't I say I don't want another chance? Why does part of me still want him back? What would that even look like?

EX-Husband Week - If you thought your spouse was your best friend, who worked hard for you, who would stay with you through thick and thin, who would always love you even when you were at your worst, and to whom you used to be PROUD to be married to, copy and paste this with the year you were married and divorced. 1994-2011

I keep seeing the loving version of this on FB. It irritates me. Not that I want others to be unhappy, but I am sick of being unhappy. I'm nothing but an embarassment to him. A part of his life he wants to forget ever existed. He has someone else now. I believe he would happily never even talk to me again if it weren't for our kids. Not really sure what I did to make him turn against me so thoroughly. He's the one who cheated. I guess I had some nerve forgiving him.

I am truly stuck. I can't stand him being with her, but cannot fathom forgiving him for everything he's said and done to me in the last 4 years. At least not to the extent of taking him back. But I cannot stand the thought of him giving himself body and soul to another woman. It feels like its killing me.

Apparently, if you spend 10 years lying to someone and getting away with it, you spend the rest of your life assuming that person is an IDIOT and continue to lie for NO REASON WHATSOEVER! Then you can also get mad at HER for daring to not believe your STUPID bs, and seeing through it to the truth.

And maybe people are really sick of you trying to push responsibility for YOUR actions off on the other persons reaction to it.

I believe that it is entirely possible to love and hate at the same time. Saying people vilify someone due to rejection does not allow for the person actually being a villain. Maybe they hate you because you've 'evolved' into a selfish prick, but still love who you once were. Who they fell in love with so many years ago and pledged their life to. Maybe thy still love that person but hate the person you've become.

Trying to not obsess over him. Easier said than done. The longer there is no contact the easier it gets, but that can only last so long because of the kids. He is with someone else. He LOVES someone else. The pain that causes me is indescribable. He rejected me and has now given his heart to another. Not just his body, his heart. Ouch.

"While you’re on your way to where you’re going, enjoy where you are. Don’t wait until everything is perfect before you decide to enjoy your life."

Found this on FB. I wish I knew HOW to do this.