Good days, bad days, okay days. Still get very sad and jealous when my friends husbands express their love for their wives. Still wonder why mine couldn't get away fast enough. He is so different now that it's really hard to believe its the same person. He's really not worth pinning over, but I can't seem to stop. Don't really want who he is, but am sickened at the thought of him with other women. Good thing I have my God and my kids.

Don't you just love it when people who don't want to follow God's commandments then just decide to classify it as someone else's dogma to excuse their sin? I just love that. Cuz goodness knows its certainly not possible for something to be WRONG. Or at least that's not a decision anyone else can make for me. Even God. "I am the bastion of truth and i alone know the difference between right and wrong for my own life." Bull. It makes me sick. There is RIGHT and there is WRONG and GOD ALONE decides the difference.

Who needs truth? Why don't we all just make up our own rules? Why don't we all say "Screw what this 'god' wants, lets just do what we want to do. I know better than him anyway." how dare I not just be able to do whatever I want do whenever I want to do it. Screw everybody else. I am what matters in this world. Its all about me.

He is a different person now. We believe different things. He stands for different things. He has done many things I can't stand the thought of. Why can't I say I don't want another chance? Why does part of me still want him back? What would that even look like?

EX-Husband Week - If you thought your spouse was your best friend, who worked hard for you, who would stay with you through thick and thin, who would always love you even when you were at your worst, and to whom you used to be PROUD to be married to, copy and paste this with the year you were married and divorced. 1994-2011

I keep seeing the loving version of this on FB. It irritates me. Not that I want others to be unhappy, but I am sick of being unhappy. I'm nothing but an embarassment to him. A part of his life he wants to forget ever existed. He has someone else now. I believe he would happily never even talk to me again if it weren't for our kids. Not really sure what I did to make him turn against me so thoroughly. He's the one who cheated. I guess I had some nerve forgiving him.

I am truly stuck. I can't stand him being with her, but cannot fathom forgiving him for everything he's said and done to me in the last 4 years. At least not to the extent of taking him back. But I cannot stand the thought of him giving himself body and soul to another woman. It feels like its killing me.

Apparently, if you spend 10 years lying to someone and getting away with it, you spend the rest of your life assuming that person is an IDIOT and continue to lie for NO REASON WHATSOEVER! Then you can also get mad at HER for daring to not believe your STUPID bs, and seeing through it to the truth.

And maybe people are really sick of you trying to push responsibility for YOUR actions off on the other persons reaction to it.